I reread Talaimans post and it is sinking in I do realise that its about men because I was looking for love in a man that I lacked from my parents and their weird choices. Maybe it was too much for the them ! These last few years, Instead of making and concentrating on a good career and progressing, I just stayed at the bottom because I didn't feel good about myself! With my ex it took so much energy out of me because you would be wondering what's going on when he wasn't there, because of his track record and helping him with his problems. Why did he put all that on me if he knew he wasn't going to stay with me or whatever, but how come I still miss him? I could go on about this forever! I'm sure you are all bored of reading more or less the same posts.

"The older I'm getting, the more sensitive I am. Because you realise that some of these things tend to stick. That was back in 2007, and I still have to go, 'Listen, fucking hell, I'm not an ice queen. Calvin Klein spent millio